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I Choose to be Thankful

I realize that it is expedient that I wake up and spend time with God. There will always be trials and tribulations. If I neglect my spiritual life, I will be like the man who carefully studies himself in the mirror and then once he leaves, he immediately forgets his image.

Additionally, I never realized how profound that scripture is. I woke up and couldn't sleep around 5:00 AM contemplating all of the unfinished and unanswered "problems" that needed to be resolved.

I decided to sit up and with each inhalation I spoke a positive virtue that I am receiving, such as love, peace, and joy. With each exhalation I was releasing negative thoughts, fear, anxiety, even oppression.

After a while I relaxed and was able to go back to sleep. I woke up afterwards, much later than I wanted to, but I was compelled to commune with the Holy Spirit.

Being Led Unawares

As I focused while fighting my flesh, doubting that I could do so, because I would stop meditating to make a phone call or compose an email. I finally realized that the Spirit was leading me because part of my early morning exercise was to verbalize that I will do my part when led. While casting my cares on Him, knowing that he cares for me.

Also resolving in my spirit that afflictions are for strength, and to increase spiritual maturity. I am learning so much in my time with Him, meditating in His Word.

We will always wrestle against principalities and spiritual wickedness, but we must trust in Him. His Word is true.

While lying down I was under mental attack again and kept worrying about the weather for our destination and looking at other literature until I had to tell myself that the Holy Spirit himself gave me permission to go, this is His blessing. I notice that I have an earthly therapist and a Spirit therapist. God cares for my well-being in every way. The enemy fears this.

I am more than a conqueror through Christ who strengthens me!!!

Originally written January 07, 2022.

Benevolent Woman

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