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Unvirtuous Characteristic

Yesterday we drove to Myrtle Beach for a short vacation. I brought one of my older sons with me also to help drive. He offered to drive the whole way there and back. But I knew that it is more than just sitting in a seat and maneuvering a steering wheel. Driving can lead to a lot of expended energy when using care.

He is a very good driver, and the trip is 13.5 hours. I started driving and after an hour and a half he took over, driving approximately 8.5-9 hours straight. Because I wanted to see the sights, I didn't take the opportunity to sleep like I should have.

Be Anxious for Nothing

I was also anxious because I chose to sit in the back with my daughter and could not see from a driver or front seat passenger perspective. The steep slopes, lack of guardrails, and high altitude in West Virginia just added to my stress.

Once my son asked for a break I had to take over. By then my "aging" eyes and the rain definitely weren't cooperating with me. But by God's grace my son had made it through the most exhausting portion of the drive. It made me realize that there was another component that I needed to deal with. The need to be and feel in control.

Let Go and Let God

As long as we are obedient to God, He will keep us. I am now feeling as if I insulted Him because I was worrying and anxious. As if I could keep my family safe by my own strength. It also prevented me from enjoying the scenery and the rest that I needed. Leading to even more anxiety and chaotic emotions.

The negative traits of controlling others is the same as witchcraft. Trusting God is a necessity for me to work on. Additionally, I deprived my spirit of the joy and peace of spending time with my family. Lesson learned!!!

Originally written on January 10, 2022.

Benevolent Woman

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