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You See Me

A message to all my admirers. Past and present.

One thing that I am cognizant of as a nurse and a woman of God, is the lengths that people will go to. To go out of their way to watch me.

I have asked God about this many times. People that are so focused on me that they sit in corners and even follow me around. Just watching. Conversely, even when you are silent, you speak loud and clear.

While experiencing this on the job, here are my thoughts. "You are so fixated on me when you have patients that are in need of care." How exactly does that work? But by God's grace, this won't end well for you!

You are trying to see if I am walking my talk. It is as if you have tunnel vision.

The Revelation

This is a sinister spirit. Furthermore, what is strange, is that I will never in my life make you my focal point. I just don't feel the need.

You seek to sabotage me. And it is the helpless people in your care that suffers. You attempt to dig a ditch. But you don't know the God that I serve.

You see, even in my mess (because I am not perfect) God is for me. And if God is for me, WHO can be against me?

I am His chosen. His anointed. I am not bragging but it is true.

There is Nothing New Under the Sun

What you are doing is not new. I have experienced this all of my life. Moreover, this is how I know that this is spiritual. Because I am no better than anyone else.

If I knew what you were thinking, and sometimes I do, and what you are saying, and that to, hence, I am ultimately empowered.

I will say this. You flatter me. But don't take it as a compliment. Because flattery is a sin. Just know, that I will never, reciprocate this behavior to anyone.

You are not the first. Nor will you be the last. I experience this from women, young and old. Black, brown, and white. And men also. To be more specific, men who exude feminine energy or toxic masculinity.

Notwithstanding, please be aware, that whether good or evil, God never lets His anointed walk-in darkness. I don't have to say a word. Just know that I see you!!!

The Word of the LORD

So, I asked the LORD for clarification, and these are the scriptures that He gave me. Please reference these for confirmation. Psalm 25:2, 59:1-4, 88:22-23, 89:22-23, and 129:2-3. I can go on but much of what He is giving me is for me and me alone.

Now you may or may not see the immediate effects of your wickedness. But know this. As it is written, "Do not touch My anointed ones, and do My prophets no harm" (Psalm 105:15).

A Word of Advice, From a Place of Love

Now you may stay stagnant. Because in essence that is where you are. No matter what you think may be manifesting in your life. While I move forward in the LORD.

Or you can face a harsher reality as I have and still do. You can ask yourself, what can I do to heal. To become better. To grow and mature.

As for me, the only one that I am in competition with is myself. Always striving to be a better version of me. Forever thankful when I see it coming to fruition in my life.

Originally written on June 30, 2022.

Benevolent Woman

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