Benevolent Woman's Blog

  When They Fear Your Anointing As I spend time in the Spirit, I am drawn to 1 Samuel 18. In the prior chapter, David defeated the giant Philistine Goliath. Indeed, the Spirit of the LORD left Saul and he began to be tormented by an evil spirit.  At the same time, the LORD is walking David right into his anointing. Likewise, we realize that this is when the spiritual warfare began for David. It is not the beginning. As his brothers showed contempt and maltreatment for him. Nevertheless, eventually evolved. David is unjustly pursued by Saul who hated him. Knowing that the LORD is with David. Saul's jealousy and envy set in motion his desire to kill David. As if eliminating him would restore his standing with men and/or God. (Think of Cain and Abel.) A Tragic Misconception This is a form of pride that I see every day as a nurse. The LORD only decides who lives and who dies. When a fragile human is healed by the LORD's grace. Days are added to their life. They immediately begin t...

  Honoring Man As I read the book of Esther, I realize that I share a similar characteristic of Mordecai. Never feeling the need to honor men. This is with exception. I am aware of the perils of ungodly relationships, soul ties, and trauma bonds. For obvious reasons, I am past that now. Accordingly, I wipe the dust from my feet and keep it moving. Even when it hurts. Notwithstanding, I have always had the mindset that I value no man above Jesus. Even those in authority. Moreover, I know from whence my help comes. Regardless to whether you are the president, renowned entertainer or businessman, employer or supervisor, millionaire or billionaire. You are but a man. We can't save our own souls alive. This is evident in the "ancestors" that have died before you. Haman's Low Self-Esteem Mordecai would not bow to Haman!!! This has nothing to do with pride, this is about reverence of the one true God. As Haman, individuals place high esteem in self-regard and the need to be ...

  Who We Are As I read in the book of Ezra, the LORD is merciful. And through Cyrus the king, some exiles are returned to the land. I recently saw a headline on a YouTube video stating that there is no evidence showing that Jesus existed. In addition, the Holy Spirit reminded me of when Jacob wrestled with the Angel and asked the Angel for his name. The Angel would not tell him (Genesis 32:29). Accordingly, when Samson's father Manoa inquired of the Angel who was sent to him for his name. The Angel replied, why do you ask? It is beyond understanding (Judges 13:18). A Fool Says in His Heart That There is No God People argue every day about who Jesus is and if He exists. I know that the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit are one. Communing with them daily. Hence, there is no question for me. It is ingrained in my soul. Genealogies are important for a reason. And meticulous records were kept in biblical days. Yet in our humanity records have been lost and destroyed. The enemy wants ...

  It is Already Decreed I am reading in the book of Ezra where the exiles began to rebuild the temple. Please take note that in Ezra chapter 4, the enemies of the Israelites, the Samaritans first came feigning wanting to assist them. In the rebuilding of the temple. Nevertheless, the leaders of Israel were clear in verse 3. We don't serve the same God. We will build the temple ourselves. To put it more bluntly. We see right through you. Why would we accept your help? When the Samaritans perceived that the Israelites could not be easily deceived, their true natures became manifest. Moreover, they began to threaten and intimidate the Israelites. The Samaritans went even further. Writing a letter to the king. Accusing the Israelites of attempting to rebel. This is done directly against the will of God. Accordingly, calling the rebuilding of the temple evil. The Folly Continues The Samaritans and other enemies convinced the king to decree that the work is stopped. Albeit the prophets o...

  Choosing Ignorance Yesterday I went to court with my son. He is being accused of a crime that he did not commit. With solid alibis. What is disturbing my spirit is that his attorney and the investigator are clearly aware that he is innocent. Albeit the lawyer stated, "You know if this really did happen you can tell me. I am obligated by attorney-client privilege not to say anything". This is a form of mental deception and manipulation. A type of mental illness. It is when a person refuses to see the truth. Thus, saith the LORD, "A liar shall not tarry in my sight"! I awoke this morning and expressed to the Holy Spirit what disdain I have for devious, beguiling people. I had my last session with my therapist yesterday. And she always reminds me not to be judgmental. That people heal differently. But the Spirit spoke to me and made it clear that it is reserved for those who are truly trying to repair their mental, spiritual, and emotional well-being. Nevertheless, I...

  You See Me A message to all my admirers. Past and present. One thing that I am cognizant of as a nurse and a woman of God, is the lengths that people will go to. To go out of their way to watch me. I have asked God about this many times. People that are so focused on me that they sit in corners and even follow me around. Just watching. Conversely, even when you are silent, you speak loud and clear. While experiencing this on the job, here are my thoughts. "You are so fixated on me when you have patients that are in need of care." How exactly does that work? But by God's grace, this won't end well for you! You are trying to see if I am walking my talk. It is as if you have tunnel vision. The Revelation This is a sinister spirit. Furthermore, what is strange, is that I will never in my life make you my focal point. I just don't feel the need. You seek to sabotage me. And it is the helpless people in your care that suffers. You attempt to dig a ditch. But you don...

  The Power of the Spirit Have you ever literally heard someone speak in the Spirit? They are nowhere around you. You have never met them or know anything about them. But you know this because God manifests the action(s) that confirm exactly what you heard. Albeit this has happened to me many times. But there were two time that were very distinct. Causing me to foolishly stumble into situations that hurt my heart. Even so, this morning I woke, my first thought was to say that I didn't want this gift, because the outcomes were producing painful emotions. But the Holy Spirit urged me to pray in a different way. I noticed that God is turning the heart of stone (that I prayed for) back into my heart of flesh. Affirmed by certain attitudes that I take when someone is being petty. Knowing that the original tender version of my heart is who God made me to be. If I even attempt to reciprocate negative energy my spirit cannot rest. My thought lately: "I am not built like that!" Co...